Trying this again a year later...

So I realize now that I am a horrible blogger. I thought a year ago when I started this page that I would just be able to miraculously push aside the feelings I had of never being able to have a biological child and move straight to adoption. Boy was I wrong. I have been on an emotional roller coaster for the past year thinking that I was ok with the path that life had laid before me and then realizing that the hole that was left needed to be dealt with before I could move forward. I am fortunate in the fact that I have an amazing husband who wants nothing but the best for me and supports me in every way, even when it means giving me a reality check when I'm not looking for one. This past year has been very difficult for me but I have come to cherish the strength and support that I have been given from my family and friends. I have been truly blessed to learn what great family and friends I have. Anyway, for a year now we have been talking about having a fundraiser to help offset the cost of adoption and I am happy to say that we have set a date for October 28th. I am so excited to think that the process is actually starting to move forward but at the same time I am experiencing trepidation that we might not raise any money and the embarrassment that will follow if that were to happen. I am hoping to use this blog to allow my scattered thoughts to focus and finally get this off the ground...