My life has forever changed...

On February 25, 2013 my life was forever changed as I had a full hysterectomy. I know in my heart that it was the best choice that Brian and I could make for my health and our future; however, looking back my heart is still broken. Even after hearing from the doctor today the extent of the disease I know that had I not had the surgery things would have definitely gotten a lot worse. I know that I have a lot of healing to do both physically and mentally I just want to move on and start the adoption process. I worry that the longer we wait the less our chances of ever having a child. I know that our child will be just that OURS. I don't worry about race or nationality I just want to have the chance for us to love a child who otherwise would be lost. I am just trying to get through this difficult time with grace and hopefully my sanity :)