Trying this again a year later...

So I realize now that I am a horrible blogger. I thought a year ago when I started this page that I would just be able to miraculously push aside the feelings I had of never being able to have a biological child and move straight to adoption. Boy was I wrong. I have been on an emotional roller coaster for the past year thinking that I was ok with the path that life had laid before me and then realizing that the hole that was left needed to be dealt with before I could move forward. I am fortunate in the fact that I have an amazing husband who wants nothing but the best for me and supports me in every way, even when it means giving me a reality check when I'm not looking for one. This past year has been very difficult for me but I have come to cherish the strength and support that I have been given from my family and friends. I have been truly blessed to learn what great family and friends I have. Anyway, for a year now we have been talking about having a fundraiser to help offset the cost of adoption and I am happy to say that we have set a date for October 28th. I am so excited to think that the process is actually starting to move forward but at the same time I am experiencing trepidation that we might not raise any money and the embarrassment that will follow if that were to happen. I am hoping to use this blog to allow my scattered thoughts to focus and finally get this off the ground...

It's a long road

It has been almost 2 months now since we found out that in order to have a family we would need to adopt. I can say that I when the process first began I had no idea what all would be involved and now with all the research I've done I realize that this journey is going to be longer than I thought. I struggle daily with the desire to become a mother and I hope that our efforts will pay off in the end. We have been discussing many ways to raise money such as a bake sale and silent auction. My mom is making a beautiful quilt for us to either auction off or raffle. I pray that one day our family will be complete...

Our journey begins...

Our journey into adoption began yesterday, July 18th when we had our first consultation with a consultant from Adoption Network Law Center (ANLC) based out of California. We are really looking forward to the process; however, I am nervous and anxious about not only the financial aspect but also the waiting. The birthmother will actually choose us based on our photographs, bios and a letter that we will write to her. It is the greatest gift for a woman to give her child over to a couple who has been yearning to be parents. I only pray that a birthmother receives our information and believes that we will be the ideal parents for her unborn child.